June 30, 2014
I have my first ultrasound tomorrow. And I’m scared. I’m scared that something will be wrong and this isn’t a viable pregnancy. I’m scared that everything will be fine but I’m pregnant with multiples.
I’m ready for it to be over.
Oh, and I’m out of Zofran.
June 27, 2014
- In whimsical telly entertainment, ReBoot is now available on Hulu. There’s something delightfully meta about watching this show on my computer. And it was fun to see the seasons I missed because I was in college sans TV.
- My nieces are in town for a visit. They’ve had wonderful adventures at the library and the museum and, of course, the lake. (Not the Lake. Just the small one in the county park near where my parents live.) Plus they’ve now been introduced to The Music Man. How can that not make a body happy?
- An eye-rolling smile this week came when we were told that Courtney and Melanie will be moved into the vacant office next to mine. We had been previously told that we would NOT be able to use that office as a short-term solution for our four-people-three-offices conundrum while waiting to move into our new offices around the corner.
- Sr Rose continues to make me happy. She’s so happy for me. And my parents. And she asked when I was due. And of her own accord commented that it wasn’t near Sofia’s birthday. (Okay, so she called her Sophie. From her, I’ll let it go.) And she was very insistent that if I’m finding that the B6 isn’t enough, that the nurses can hook me up. (Okay, my words, not hers. But that was the gist of what she was saying.)
- I have an ultrasound scheduled for Tuesday. And a follow-up with Dr O. At which I will be demanding a Zofran prescription.
- The ribbon cutting for our new building is Wednesday. We are required to go. And eat good barbeque. And ice cream. Pity…
June 20, 2014
- The first thing is a no-brainer. A positive pregnancy test!!! And Suzy called with my hcG results. It’s in the low 400s, which is right at the top range of where it should be right now. I’ll have a second level drawn on Monday, but she said I should go ahead and schedule my OB intake appointment. Which is good because it leads me to number 2.
- B6 injections. They may sting like crazy, but I’m so glad I was able to get one today. I’m starting to feel a bit better. And it will definitely make the weekend more tolerable. Even better will be once I’ve seen Lori and she writes me a new Zofran prescription. The B6 will get me through most of the time, but it’s very comforting to have the Zofran on hand for when I feel too sick to swallow.
- I ran into Dr O when I went in for my B6 injection today. He gave me a half hug and congratulated me. I thanked him and told him that I was there for a B6. He was surprised. I explained that I’ve had morning sickness for a week. “That’s a good sign!” he cheered. I am so grateful to him for helping me get pregnant.
- When I thought I wasn’t pregnant on Wednesday, two docs independently sent me funny emails (and they didn’t even know I needed a laugh). You see, we’ve started moving into our new building, and I was trying to set up appointments with them. I included the message “As people continue to move, please let us know where you will be.” One wrote back with a lengthy description of how to find his new office: “Third floor… north end of building. Fourth (or so) door on the left. Handsome looking devil sitting in the chair.” The second simply replied, “Other people may move, but I remain steadfast.”
- There are some non-pregnancy things, too. This status from a friend’s Facebook page: “Fact time: My favorite condiment is spicy brown mustard. Oh. Oh I’m sorry ketchup, I didn’t see you standing there. No, stop, don’t cry. I wasn’t serious. It’s ok I can have two favorites. Please ketchup get ahold of yourself dis is embarrassing. -whispers to blue cheese dressing- shhh you’re my actual second favorite I don’t even like ketchup.”
- This post on NPR about holographic chocolates. Interesting and they look beautiful!
- And last, but definitely not least, Linda Holmes is once again making me happy with her Spoiler-Free ‘Game of Thrones’ Twitter Translator.
June 19, 2014
I really thought my period was starting. I really did. It really looked like the way my period starts.
And it stayed stopped.
But my period was supposed to start today. So I tried to be strong. I told myself to wait until after work today. Wait to make sure it doesn’t start.
But I couldn’t stand it anymore. At around 11 this morning, I ran home and peed on a stick. It was a three-minute test. The second line showed up after only about a minute.
I am shaking. I took a picture and texted it to my parents and to Nicki. (All of them had, of course, been told yesterday that my period had started.)
And then I called the clinic. And the same nurse I spoke to yesterday answered. I told her what had happened.
She cheered and then said, “I thought that was what was going on!” She had been unconvinced by my description of my period starting. She hadn’t thought it really sounded like that’s what was going on.
So my ultrasound and consult for tomorrow have been canceled and replaced with a blood draw. I’ll have a second one on Monday. And then we’ll go from there.
Goal #1: Get pregnant. Accomplished.
Goal #2: Stay pregnant. In progress.
June 18, 2014
I was tired yesterday. Really tired. I went to bed at 8. When I woke up at 10:30 and went to the bathroom, I was spotting. But it wasn’t normal spotting. It was pink and watery. And then it was gone.
So I put on a pad and went back to bed. And I tried to stay on my left side just in case that would help.
But I felt really sick. And this is where it is all just plain wrong and Not Fair. I’ve felt sick for a week. And I’ve been hoping that it’s morning sickness. But last night, I felt really sick. And so I got up and vomited. Which, you know, helped. A bit. For the moment. And I was able to fall back asleep.
At around 3:30, I woke up again. Went to the bathroom. Nothing. No brown mucus. No pink watery spotting. Nothing. Maybe it was a fluke.
And until 1 this afternoon, it was nothing. And then I went to bathroom at work. And I’m spotting the way I normally spot. Blood-streaked mucus.
So I have a call in to the clinic. The nurse is checking with the ultrasound tech so that I can get an appointment and consult scheduled for Friday. I’m not looking forward to going through another cycle.
Here’s hoping third time is the charm!
June 17, 2014
A close friend has had a rough go of it of late. My mom recently had dinner with her.
“I’ve come to a conclusion,” my friend told her. “I can’t save the world right now. Right now, all I can do is save myself.”
Me, too. I think we both grew up believing we would go out and make the world better. I know I long ago determined that I could only save my little corner of the world. You know the saying: Be the change you want to see in the world. My corner has gotten small. It currently consists of me. I know it will grow again. That it will become easier to reach out to those around me. To create in my small little corner the sort of community that I wish the world could be. To live the change.
But not right now.
“She’s just as fragile as you are,” my mom said.
I don’t think that’s a word that either of us ever would have thought we’d ascribe to ourselves. I’m not fragile. I’m strong. I’m unbreakable.
Except I’m not.
P.S. It’s day 27. It was around this time last cycle that I was spotting. So far, so good. It’s been incredibly hard not to take a home test the past few days. I’m trying to hold off until at least Thursday. That’s two more days. Less than that. I’m still scared my period will start tomorrow. But if it doesn’t, I think chances will be good that this IUI was successful.
- Courtney started her new job as the CE Coordinator on Wednesday! I know that she’s happy to have the job. And I’m incredibly happy to have her doing it. We’re still figuring out exactly what’s my job and what’s hers, but I’m getting things done now that I’m not spending 90% of my time thinking about everything that I’m not getting done.
- The World Cup is underway. And I’ve downloaded the Univision app to my iPad, so I’ll be able to watch it even though I don’t have cable. I’m looking forward to tomorrow’s England/Italy match-up. Now I just need to get my toenails repainted…
- NPR’s Ari Shapiro asked how British literature would change if Britain were sunny.
- And, I do apologize for this. You may recall Ylvis of “What Does the Fox Say?” fame. Well, I watched another of their songs this week. Stonehenge. Probably should be tagged NSFW. Enjoy. Sorry.